So sick (of love songs)

S/o to barb_the BAD for writing last chapters sex scene. enjoy!!!

Chapter 37

It was 6:15am, Nicki hadn't slept all night. Her pillow was soaked with her tears. She sat up in Amber's bed and looked at her surroundings. Amber and Cassie were at the bottom of the bed. True friends; they stayed up all night petting their distraught friend. When she got to the hotel room the night before, she shut the door and slid down it to the floor. She put her hand eyes and cried aloud. Amber was the first to notice Nicki and soon after called Cassie to help get Nicki off the floor. Once they did, they took her to the sofa and got her a box tissue. Then Nicki explained to her friend why she was crying while she cried. Cassie cried with her and Amber was ready to cut someone. The two girls just did not know why someone that Nicki loved so much could hurt her so bad. All ended up in Amber’s bed. Nicki said she couldn't sleep in her room and Cassie felt left out so they all slept in one bed. Nicki cried silent tears in to her pillow while the girls slept. She laid back down on the bed and looked at the time, she decided to get ready ever though she didn't want to. The pain between her like hurt like a cunt. She decided to soak herself in the bath tub. Nicki closed her eyes for a second only to reopen them and find her body in a pool of blood. She almost screamed, but she didn't. Nicki cried at the bloody reminder that she lost her innocence the night before. She got in the shower and got ready. Once she was done, she woke Cassie and Amber and bought he luggage to the suites door.
Cassie came out the shower in Nicki's ensuite room. She noticed Nicki staring out of space at the wall across the room. Then her tears started to fall and Cassie did her friendly duty and hugged her pink marshmallow.
"Nicki it will be okay." Cassie cooed. Nicki just continued to stare at the wall in silence with tears running down her cheeks. Her body was sore from the sex and from the way she tried to scrub his scent off her. She tried and tried but he was still on her. "Nicki it will be okay." Cassie repeated.
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Everyone was waiting for the girls at the airport. Drake had found an earlier flight. "Where are they?" Jelani groaned impatiently. As he said that the girls made it to the airport. "Finally" he sighed as the girls approached the group. Jay noticed Nicki couldn't walk properly. "Hahaha you look like death." He commented on his baby sister's appearance. Nicki honestly didn’t give two flying fucks about what Jelani had said.

"Nicki are you okay?" Trina asked. Nicki nodded but tears fell out so she lowered her head.

"Come on you guys we got half an hour to get checked in and board our plane." Jelani let everyone walk in front of him and Nicki. "Onika?" He said in a low tone. She didn't answer nor look up. "Onika." No response again. "Nika, wanna tell me something" she just sniffed.

"No" she managed to say.

"Onika you had sex didn't you." He raised his voice at her. She didn't answer him. "Didn't you" He shouted and people started to stare.

"Jay, drop it." She started to walk off but the pain between her legs held her back.

"Onika don't walk away from me" he yelled

"Jay shh please." Nicki put her finger on his lips. Jelani looked at his troubled sister.

"Nika did he force you?" He lowered his voice as they walked behind the group.

"What? No" She shook her head.

"What's wrong? Where is he and why have you been crying?"

She bit her lip. "Um, he has been cheating on me."

Jelani was dumbfounded, he was confused. "The same Drake that loved you more than life? The type of love you only see in his eyes?"

"I guess he just played us all." She sniffed once again as she checked in.

"When I see him, I'm gonna kill him. I promise you that!"

"Jelani promise me you won't do anything. Please I love him please don't hurt him."

"So it's okay for him to hurt my baby sister but I can't hurt him? Whatever man." Jelani walked on to the plane.

"Jay just drop it please." She followed behind him. They took they seats on the plane. She sat next to Cassie and just slept on the plane.

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Nicki woke up in her room at 8:16pm; she took a shower then put some pyjamas on. She made her way to the living room and greeted her dad.

"Hi princess, how you feeling?" Mr Maraj asked.

"Umm a bit better actually."

"Your brother already said you didn't sleep much last night." The mention of 'last night' made Nicki a little dizzy.

"Um yeah, sorry Dad I think I need to lie down for a bit."

"Okay princess, but don't forget this Friday we are off to Trinidad to see your Grandmother and Christmas"

"Yes dad." She kissed his cheek and went back to her room.

Nicki cried so much, it was bound to make her sick. Her mother came back from bible study to find Onika was still in her room. She could her Nika crying from the bottom of the stairs. Robert was passed out on the couch. Carol asked Caiah to wake his father up while she checked on Nicki.

"Oh Nika," Carol just hugged her darling daughter.

"Mom," She sobbed loudly. "He hurt me so bad, he really did, mom"

"Oh Nika," Carol cried with her daughter.

"Mom, I gave him everything I had". Everything!" She sobbed. Nicki was hysterical crying. "Mom my heart hurts, it really does."

"I know Nika, I know." Nicki cried on her mother's chest as Carol rocked her gently to sleep.

Thursday Night

Every night Nicki would cry herself to sleep. It was the only way she could sleep these days. Nicki was completely excited to see her grandmother and cousins this Christmas. That was the best gift her parents could ever give her. However she was still sad. She couldn't shake these feelings she had towards Drake. The love she had for him is something she just couldn't control. It just hurt to love him. She cried into her pillow. Praying for the day when she will forget him.
Just as she finally was going to drifted off to sleep. She received a text from Drake.

<< Please stop crying you’re too pretty for that.
>> FUCK OFF MY PHONE!
<<I'm sorry, I really am. I love you

She cried herself to sleep once again. Just seen those words made her knees weak and her heart melt

Trinidad

Nicki took in the sweet air of Trinidad. She loved Trinidad, every time she comes back to Trinidad; it's the most peaceful feeling on earth. When her family made it back to her grandma's house, Nicki felt the tears escape her eyes as her favourite cousins called her name.
"Onika?" They yelled in their Trini accents.

"Cheyenne? Anna? Dianne?" Nicki cried. "I missed you guys" The four girls hugged. Nicki admired how beautiful her older cousins were.

"Onika we missed you" Anna said wiping her tears.

"Seeing you guys once a year is not enough. I miss you so much." Once a year the whole of Nicki's family will go to her grandmother’s house for Christmas. You dare not miss this holiday at her Grandma's house because you will be scolded for it. Nicki sat in the living room greeting the rest of her cousins. "Where's grandma?"

"In her room, she is getting better slowly but at least she is getting better." Cheyenne informed her cousin.

"Okay, I'm gonna go talk to grandma for a bit."

"Okay Onika, all the girls are going to the mall when you come back." Her mother said, Nicki nodded and went to her grandmother's room. She knocked on the door.

"Come in." Her grandma had the thickest accent in the house. Nicki walked in to see, her grandma. She was beautiful old women with the longest her. When Nicki was younger she used to brush her grandmothers hair as they talked. "Onika, da is you?" she smiled beautifully.

"Grandma," Nicki smiled, letting one tear fall. She hugged her and they both took in each others scents. "I missed you so much." A few seconds passed before Nicki let go. She grabbed a brush off her grandmother's dresser and sat on her bed. Her grandma laid right on her grandbaby's thighs. Nicki started brushing her hair.

"Onika, you lookin thicker than ever." Her grandmother chuckled.

Nicki furrowed her brows at her grandma. "Grandma, that's not funny."

"Nika, mi know you growin into a woman, now. Mi also know you bein doin the nasty. Mi see it in mi dream."

Nicki grasped as brush her hair. "Grandma!"

"Mi nah lie." Nicki stopped and looked at her. "Gyal, mi know the truth." Nicki smirked and looked away. "Yes you look away." Nicki chuckled lightly, how awkward was that moment? "You and Anna."

"Anna??"

"You nah hear word?" Her grandma playfully rolled her eyes. "Both of you gotta bun in the over."

"WHAT??" Nicki stopped brushing her Grandma's hair.

"You hear mi,"

"No, grandma where did you hear that??"

"Did mi say mi hear it? Mi say me dreamt it." Nicki was quiet, this truly scared he because whenever her grandma dreamt something small factions of it would be true. "Wah happen Hoss?"

"Um…" Nicki took a deep breath. "We broke up."

"Why?"

"He's been cheating on me." Nicki's stomach turned as she said that.

"Oh Nika,"

"It's fine." Nicki didn't even notice her tears falling.

"Onika, don't cry over boy dem." Nicki bit the inside of her cheek. "Your family love you Nika. Cherish these moments because next time you see me, mi could be in a box, Life is way too short."

"Grandma don't say that. Please..." Nicki sat the brush down and hugged her grandmother tightly. "I love you okay? Don't talk like that!"

"I love you too baby," Nicki wish she could stay with her forever. "Onika I want to sleep now."

"Okay Grandma." Nicki put the brush back on the dress. She wiped her tears and fluffed he grandma’s pillows. "Sweet dreams." She kissed her crazy grandmothers forehead and closed the door quietly behind her.

Birthday Sex

Chapter 36 

Drake POV

It was 3 pm, I had something important to tell Nicki but I couldn't remember it at all. I had the worst headache in the world at that moment. I searched high and low for my phone but I had no luck in finding it. I looked everywhere in the living room area of our suite, it had to be here since I didn't go to my room. I was determined to find it for some reason, something told me it was really important I find it, I tried but my headache interfered, so I gave up.

After having a shower and getting dressed I took aspirin to help with the headache, I waited for the aspirin to numb the pain and went to Nicki's suite. She opened the door, "Hi baby, what happened to you last night? I told you to come over." She pouted, I pecked her lips.

"I know but after I left the club..." I thought hard. "Everything else is a blur"

"Ok well I see you got to your hotel room okay" She said noticing my fresh new clothes. She grabbed my hand and led me in the suite. I closed the door behind me.

"What did you need me for anyway?" I asked.

"Nothing" She was looking up but she was avoiding eye contact with me.

"Nicki, what was it?" I laughed, she looked so innocent. She stepped front until our noses were touching, which was possible because of her pink platform pumps.

"I wanted... Umm you know... Umm I wanted to finally." She bit her lip, and then spoke. "Do it" She confessed

"Do what?" I chuckled, still confused.

"Have sex, you idiot" She walked into the living room area of the suite. I swear I almost died; my girlfriend is ready to have sex with me right now? I love Nicki so much. I wish she was my first but I know she will be the only other girl I will have sex with from this onwards. She just looked frustrated; I knew I had to make it up to her.

"Nicki, sorry I wasn't there, last night. But i promise to make it up to you today." She stared at me blankly. So I whisked her in the air off the sofa, causing her to giggle, preciously. I took her to her bed room as she kissed my lips with her arms around my neck. Our tongues danced around and around, mimicking each other's movements. I felt her smile once my teeth grazed her bottom lip. She then pulled away with a subtle chuckle. I smiled down at her as she laid back on the bed. Nicki was a portrait beneath me. Her beautiful locks, curled tight just for me, covered most of the pillow her head lay on. Her eyes were like crystals staring up at me, and her lips, slightly parted, were stained pink. My eyes followed her hands as they travelled down her body. I licked my lips watching her unbutton her jeans.

"You wanna take off your shirt?" She asked me, breaking me from my trance. I smiled, remembering my purpose.

"Oh, yea." I removed my shirt then helped her out of her pants. She shed her white tube top and soon our clothing littered the floor.

I kissed her lips while my fingers found her pearl. She hissed feeling my soft touch.

Nicki POV

Drake's lips left mine as he began kissing my neck, sweetly. I was getting wetter with every second his fingers glided between my lips. The more tension that built within me, the more I wanted him inside.

"Put it in." I managed to whisper as he teased my skin with his tongue. I spread my legs a little wider and scooted further down to meet him. This was really about to happen... I bit my lip as I felt him entering me.

"Ohhh!" I yelled out, in a voice unfamiliar to my own.

"Sorry..."

"Ow, ow!"

He stopped as I looked at him, worry etching itself across his face. "We don't have to–"

"No. Keep going. I want to." I told him.

He exhaled and began entering me again.

Drake's POV

I was barely two inches in when I felt her nails digging into my skin. I could feel her tensing up the deeper I tried to go.

"Relax." I whispered to her. She finally eased up, allowing me to plunge deeper. I then heard a faint gasp escape her lips. Slowly, I began to move out then in, then out again; she was so tight. I kissed her neck as I continued to thrust into her. Soon, our bodies were hot and beading with sweat.

"You okay?"

"Yes..." She breathed. "Oh, God.... Aubrey.... I love you so much."

Lifting my head from the crevice of her neck, I looked at her.

"I love you." She repeated.

She looked so sweet, so innocent. I wiped away her tears as they fell from her eyes. I fixed my lips to respond, but something inside me was making me feel... guilty? I didn't understand.

"Aubrey?" She moaned, breaking my trance once more.

"I love you too, Onika." I kissed her lips while pulling the sheets over us both.

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Nicki loved the smell of sex, but she loved the smell of her Johnson's Coca butter cream more. She got up in some much pain but she could handle it and took a shower with Drake, which is where the fun continued. Nicki got dress in here juicy couture black tracksuit and Drake just wore his clothes. He decided to help Nicki packed because they would be leaving the next morning.

"We're back" Amber yelled then she went into Nicki's room. "Oh Hey Drake" She said with a smile across her face, she could smell the sex in the air.

"Sup"

"Hey girl, it's about time y'all came back, tell me everything!"Nicki squealed sitting Indian style on the carpet flooring.

"Ok I am just going to go now" Drake said but Cassie, Amber and Nicki talking and screaming, they didn't pay him any attention.

Drake left to go back to his room. He decided to start packing and that is when he came across his phone. His phone refreshed his memory. He could remember something's from the night before. As soon as he went through his phone, he started to remember and hated what he remembered and hated himself. He knew one thing, that he needed to tell Nicki.

Nicki POV

I finished packing my things after Cassie and Amber left my room. I'm so happy everyone's relationship is so GREAT! I told them about Drake and I and how I lost my virginity card. Amber was so proud of me and Cassie was just happy I did it with a man I love. I think Drake is definitely the one for me. There is a reason our paths crossed.

The girls were in their room packing. Our flight is at 10:30 tomorrow morning. We decide after we pack that we are going to have a girls night you know, movies, eat junk food. Imma work it off late.

Once I finished packing I laid out my clothes for the next morning. I almost forgot that I need to call Trina tell her congratulation again, I know she is beyond excited. Hell, so am I.

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"Tell Trina I said thank you for the best birthday ever! What time should we meet you guys tomorrow?"

"She said you’re welcome sweet pea. Um… 8am. Make sure to tell the boys."

"Hell no, you tell them," I giggled. “Oh, Jelani did you tell mom yet?"

"She's the one that gave me the idea to propose." He laughed

"Oh??" I cocked my head at her phone like he could see her. "And no one informed me?"

"Because you would've told her. Yall are mad tight I couldn't tell you."

"Jay, I don't have a big mouth." I pouted.

"Sure, I will talk to you tomorrow, good night" he said and hung up in my face. I just stood there mouth open.
"He did not." I chuckle lightly. He is for sure getting it tomorrow. As soon as I hung up, Drake called me.

"Hey Babe, Great Timing"

"Oh hey, Nicki we need to talk, "

He sounds serious but nervous "What about?"

"I will tell you when I see you; meet me in the park we went to yesterday, okay?"

"Okay Drake what's wrong, you're
scaring me."

"Just meet me there in 30 minutes"

"Okay." I took a deep breath then hung up. I don't understand what's going on.

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Nicki let the girls know she was leaving and she shouldn't be more than an hour. She put on her sneakers and made her way down to the park. It was so dark but thankful the street lights were on. However it was a little chilli so Nicki feel it was nessacary to zip her tracksuit all the way up and walk with her hands in her pockets. As she walked closer to their spot in the park she wondered more. What was this meeting about? Her question was about be answered. As soon as Nicki caught a glimpse of Drake's muscularly exterior, she ran and jumped into his arms, wrapping her legs around his waist. She grabbed his face with both hands and kissed him. But soon pulled away, something was a bit off with the kiss. She got down from him whilst staring at him like he had two heads. "Babe, what's wrong?" She asked with a confused pout. When he hung his head, she just waved it off as she walked searching for a conversation. "Oh my gosh, babe did I tell you?" She asked holding his hand. Drake head still looking at the floor. "Trey came to my hotel room last night." The mention of 'last night' made the hairs on the back of his neck stand up. He looked at her. "Yeah, he was telling me to leave you. I was like why would I leave the MAN of MY dreams for the boy of my nightmares?" Nicki chuckled. "Drake he is so pathetic, I don't think y'all should be friends anymore. To be honest he ain't a friend." Nicki rambled on about how much of a friend he isn't.

"I don't deserve you." Drake whispered.

Nicki stopped dead in her track. "What?"

"I don't deserve you." He said a little loud. He had tears in his eyes.

"Babe, what are you talking about?" She asked as she wiped his tears.

"Nicki I'm sorry," He said repeatedly as he fell to his knees. Nicki was so confused but it made her heartache to see Drake in such a state. All she could do was hug him. "Nicki I did I bad thing." He sobbed.

"Drake, you're scaring me please stand up."

Drake stood up as she wished and held both her hands. He looked at the promise ring he gave her, then he looked at the necklace her gave her. He looked at her face and saw the earring he got her on their first date. He hung his head in shame. "Nicki,"

"Drake, you're scaring me." She could feel something wasn't right.

"Nicki I cheated." He said almost immediately after Nicki spoke.

Nicki feel her tears surfacing. "What?" She quick pulled her hands away from him.

"Nicki I'm so sorry I was drunk…"

"What?" Her tears blurred her vision.

"I didn't know what I was doing and I promise it will never happen again."

"Wait, wait, wait, Aubrey. What did you do?"

"Nicki I'm sorry."

"WHAT DID YOU DO?" She screamed, scaring all the nocturnal animals in the park.

"I cheated." He whispered. The back of Nicki's hand made a hard connection with Drakes cheek.

Nicki cried hysterical. "With who?"

"I'm so sorry." Drake cried.

"Just tell me who."

"With Jaz,"

Nicki felt dizzy. Like she couldn't stand any longer.

"Last night, she texted me and I was drunk."

Nicki chuckled. "Drunken actions sober thoughts. You knew exactly what you were doing."

"No and Yes, I did that's why I stopped before it went too far." He reached for her face but she slapped his hand away.

"Don't you dare touch me!" Her gasped at her own thoughts. "You're just like Trey; you couldn't wait for me so you got the cookie from somewhere else."

"Nicki that not true."

"What is TRUE, Aubrey? Because I don't know anymore. Did you truly love me? Did you truly care for me? Was I truly yours?"

"Nicki you're my truth, my love and my light."

"That's so funny how I believed everything you say, but now I don't believe shit." Nicki gasped at her own thoughts once again. "You were…Oh My God!" Nicki was having a panic attack. "Oh my God." Drake told her to sit down. "Oh My God." Nicki sat down and tried to calm herself. When she did she continued her sentence. "You took my innocence" She looked down at herself. "After you was with her the night before." Nicki couldn't even look at him. "You make me sick."

"I'm so sorry. I would have told you before we did what we did. But I didn't remember and I lost my phone. As soon as I found my phone I KNEW I had to tell you."

"How could you Aubrey? How could you hurt me this bad?" She didn't even look at him. She was still staring at her sore body in tears.

"Nicki I'm sorry." Drake got on his knees in front of her and held her face in his hands. He didn't care that she didn't want him touching her. He couldn't lose his love. "Look at me." She did. "I love you and I promise I will never as long as I live hurt you. I love you Onika." He kissed her lips passionately. Nicki let out a soft whimper as he kissed her. He laid her down on the grass. Still in a passionate kiss. She laid her right arm on her forehead as he parted her legs.

"Aubrey please" She was broken-hearted and weak. He continued to kiss her.

"Nicki I love you." She hesitated but softly kissed him back. He slid down her pants and did the same for him. Then he pushed his love slowly into her. It hurt but not as much as the first time. Drake was slow and gentle.

"Ow..." She rested her other hand on his torso.

He stroked in and out of her as he circle her clit with his thumb till she came and he came soon after in her. He rested his head on her shoulder. He listened to her soft whimpers.

"Nicki."

"Aubrey, I can't." She sobbed.

"Nicki please..." He begged

"I can't, I can't do this. You hurt me, you hurt me bad." She whimpered.

"I'm sorry, I love you please." She pushed him off her and pulled up her pants.

"Aubrey, I can't do this with you, we can't be us." Nicki took off her ring. She placed the ring in his hand. "This wasn't meant to be." Nicki ran off crying.

Drake couldn't believe that this was the last place he held her, kissed her and made love to her. There was no more fighting for her. She had made up her mind, even after he showed her his heart.

Tbc