Monday, 28 January 2013

You Got it Bad

Sorry if its not edit properly, I'm kinda half a sleep its 3am here. :( Anywho enjoy!

Chapter 38

A new year and a new Nicki. She has stopped crying herself to sleep. She has stopped crying. Nicki had picked up a new trade. It's called not giving a fuck. She doesn't wear make up, she figured she's not pretty so why try enhance beauty that's not there. She wore oversize clothing, because she can't be bother to look cute. She wears her hair in a messy bun or in a ponytail. Lastly she doesn't wear her contacts anymore she wears her big skinny famed glasses. Yep, that the new Nicki. And she didn't give a fuck.

School resumed back on the 3rd because they broke up early than other schools. Nicki use the main entrance like always. As she walked to her locker, she heard whisper and gasps.
"Who's the new girls?"
"That's no new girl that's Nicki"
"Did you hear? Drake cheated."
"Poor Nicki."
"Bitch had it coming."

Just a few of the sly comments Nicki heard. It didn't faze her though. Nicki just went about her business and went to class early. Cassie ran in to class knowing that her besties always come early. She stop dead in her track and frowned at Nicki.

"Nicki, what happened to you??"

"First of all no 'I missed you or Hi' and Nothing happened to me."

"But?" Cassie paused and figured it was because of the break up. "Sorry. Hey girl, I missed you, how was Trinidad?"

"Relaxing," Nicki said it her native accent and smiled. "Just what I need,"

"Thats awesome. Guess what?" Cassie exclaimed, sitting next to Nicki.


"No no no, I have to tell you and Amber together." She spazzed out.

"Cassie just tell me. I can't wait for Amber to get here." She pouted.

"Fine," Just as she said the Amber walking in.

"HOLY MOLEY, WHAT THE!" Amber exclaimed at Nicki's new look. Cassie and Nicki looked at her puzzled.

"Nicki what happened?"

Nicki frowned. "Nothing." She readjusted herself in her seat feeling a little bit uncomfortable.

"So why are you dressed like this?"

"Because this is how I feel, I don't feel pretty or cute I just feel weird and disgusting." She said lowly.

"Oh Nicki," Amber sat on the other side of Nicki in her seat. "You're neither of those things, you're beautiful. This isn't you." Nicki looked down. "But I know your hurting right now so I don't want to hurt your feelings. Just know Cas and I are here." Cassie and Amber hugged her, tightly.

"I missed you guys."

"We missed you so much." Cassie said as she look at the clock, it was five minutes before the bell rang. "Okay Guys, I need to tell you what I got in the post today." The girls listened to Cassie. "I got the half scholarship to Juilliard."

"You lie??" Nicki exclaimed, then screamed, she was so happy for her friend. Beyond happy.

"Cassie I'm so happy for you." Amber excitedly hugged Cassie.

"My mother wants to have a small get together, like a party to tell me 'I told you that ballet wasn't a waste of time.'" Cassie chuckled.

"I love Auntie Regina, she's too funny. I'm proud of you though Cas. Out of everyone in this school you deserve to go."

"Thanks Guys." The bell rang and everyone walked in.

Ms Scott greeted everyone. "Happy New Year Class, only a couple months left of your senior year so make the most of it. You exam schedule will be given out on Wednesday. If you need anything I'm at my desk. You can sit and talk until the first bell for class." Just are Ms Scott turned to her desk Drake came running through the door.

"Sorry I'm late."

"It's fine Drake take a seat." Drake looked at Nicki, she didn't look back she just sunk in her chair. He sighed and went to his seat.

It was lunch time and the girls sat in the cafeteria on the usually table, waiting for the boys. Shad and Omarion took they spot at the table.
"Happy New Year ladies" they said together.

Cassie giggled. "Happy New Year." Amber said the same. But Nicki was in her own little world. She played with her food, then took a bite, then played with it again. Shad nudged Amber, gesturing to Nicki. Amber whispered in his ear what was wrong.
He nodded and moved next to her putting his arm around her. She jumped at his touch.

"Sis, I said happy new year." He smiled.

She rolled her eyes. "Sorry, happy new year." She smiled weakly.

Eventually Cam made it to the table. "Babe, what took you so long?" Em asked.

"There was a new girl, Keri dropped out of school because she got signed. She's in my science class."

"Oh." Amber and Cassie started talking about her party. Nicki on the other hand, had finished her food and the lunch lady forgot to give her a napkin. As Nicki turned around to get off the bench, she was Drake talking to another girl. He made her laugh, like he used to make Nicki laugh. She was so pretty. Nicki figured she was new because she ain't never seen her before. She stared at them for so long that Drake could feel her staring. They locked eyes, Nicki could feel her tears surfacing. She attempted to run out the Cafe, but end up falling flat on her face.

"Oh My God, Nic" Amber yelled.

"Nicki" Cassie exclaimed. They both run to her aid, along with Drake. "Are you okay?"

Nicki opened her eyes and sat up. She saw the whole room staring at her. Drake and the girls helped her up. She yanked her arm from Drake grip, only because his touch still gave her the chills. She felt sick being in his presence, so she ran to the girls bathroom. Drake ran after her. Once Nicki reached the bathroom she couldn't stop herself from throwing up. Drake walked in the restroom, he held her glasses (that had dropped off her face when she fell) and rubbed her back as she throw up. When she was done pouring her guts out, she cried hysterical. He took her out the cubicle and carried her to the sink. She was still crying. He wiped her tears with his thumb, only for fresh ones to fall. Nicki was in a weak state. She didn't want to cry but she didn't expect him to bounce back so first. After all they've been through.
Drake did want to spoil the moment by talking but he had to set her straight. "Nicki," he started but Nicki finished with a slap.

"I've told you before not to touch me." She wiped her tears and got off the sink.

Drake held his face, "I'm sorry," he swiftly removed his hands from her face.

Nicki chuckled and ran the cold water. She washed her hand then gargled the cold water then spat it in to the sink.

"Nicki, Bree is new, I was just told to show her around." Nicki looked at him.

"You don't need to explain that to me. Can I have my glasses?" He handed them to her glasses. She walked out the bathroom with him on her heel.

"Aubrey? " Bree called after him. Both him and Nicki turned around. Nicki looked at him hurt. "You left me with your stuff remember." She giggled giving Drake his bag.

"Yeah sorry, Bree."

"It's fine." Bree could feel the tension in the air. She wanted to say hey to Nicki but figured she will save that greeting for another time. "I'm gonna head to class."

"Okay." Drake nodded. He turned to Nicki, "I can explain."


"Nic it's not what you think."

"You said you only tell people that you care about can call you by your first name." Nicki felt her stomach turn. "You know what I think? I think you're a cheat and a liar." With that Nicki walked away from him. She went home due to the school nurses orders, the nurse concluded Nic had a virus. But what Nicki didn't know was that was how Drake and Bree was introduced, his science teacher called him Aubrey because Drake had a smart mouth that lesson. Drake didn't correct Bree because she was new.

3months later...

Cassie's party was so nice. Everyone had on bathing suits but Nicki, of course she came in her relate attire; sweats and an oversized hoodie. For a whole week Nicki was mad at Cassie for not telling her that Drake was going to be at the party and that he was bring Bree. Seeing them together made Nicki nauseous and Cassie knew that. Cassie swore she didn't know that he was inviting Bree. She was so sorry. But Nicki being the stubborn girl she is didn't talk to Cas for a whole week.

It's was Nicki's last exam, she was excited. It's was finally over. Lately she had been getting back to being Nicki with the help of Cassie, Amber and Riri. Over past 3months Rihanna had become a bigger star so she was in LA a lot. So yes, Nicki had to explain to her why she was dressed and felt the way she did. Anyway, she was now returning to the old Nicki, she's wearing cute clothes again and doing her hair. Although she is still wearing her glasses because she's grown to love them over the past 3months. She is eating properly and being more social. Although it looks like the same old Nicki, its also a new Nicki with a different mind set on love and boys. Nicki also found out that NYU excepted her and want her to join them a month early. So Nicki and Cassie are going to the airport a week after prom to get situated. As for Safaree doesn't got college but he decide he wants to expand his jewellery line. So he is following them to New York for that, but the main reason was to be closer to Cassie. Nicki and Cassie are going to live together, since their colleges are a 15 minute car journey apart. Nicki has two more month left in LA and she can't wait to leave. Cassie got a job, modeling for Prada in New York. Whilst Nicki got a Job working at Marc Jacobs. They parents put done a down payment for the 2bedroom New York apartment, how ever Nicki and Cassie have to pay for phone bills, electricity bills and water bills, for 3years. Rich Kids got to made. Amber, is just going to Harvard, but any break she gets she has to come and see her besties. Everything was gonna be so good.

"Phat Phat!" A Deep voice called Nicki by her new nickname; because her ass is so phat and the other phat is because she's gained a bit of weight do to the lack of exercise.

She turned around from her locker to see Zephaniah, the guy that asked her out when Drake and her was dating, the same guy that was the lead in the 'Your Love' performance. "Oh Zeph, I haven't spoken to you in forever."

"I know." He chuckled. "Listen Nicki, what do you say we go to the senior prom to caught up on lost times?" Nicki was flattered. It was a confidence booster she needed. She felt so wanted at that moment.

Nicki replied, "Smooth." She giggled and he smirked. "Sorry Zeph, I'm not even going to prom." She smiled.

"Can I take you out instead?" Nicki giggled.

"I see your persistent." He smiled. "I don't think I'm ready for that right now, sorry." She turned back to her locker.

"Please Nicki just give me a chance." She turned back to look at him as he rested his hands on her waist. She really didn't think much of it because Zeph was like a brother to her.

"I'm sorry, I just…" She didn't know how to explain that, she just wanted to stay single.

"Nicki? What the hell? Why is he hold you like that?" Nicki and Zeph looked to the left. Nicki had had it up to the skyline with Drake. They're not together more.

"Drake, why are you causing a scene? We are no together anymore, that what you decided when you cheated on me twice with the same girl. It's what you wanted. So quit asking me dumb shit like we are still together because we're not. We haven't been for 4months, you need to leave me alone." Nicki slammed her locker door and walked away. Everyone in the hall stared at Drake. Drake just looked at the back of Nicki and walked in the other direction. It's been 4months but Nicki can't seem to put his mind to ease. He missed her, that night in Miami he came to the conclusion that she didn't love him anymore due to the fact that he showed her love and she resisted him. He had stopped trying but he couldn't let her go. Drake had decided to go back to his home town, Toronto with 40 and pursue his career in music. He was gonna go to college but this semester he realised it's not for him.

Nicki walked down the halls, annoyed, frustrated and angry. Why does Drake make her feel so small? She gave him her all. She continued to walk down the empty halls, clearing her mind before she went home. Drake was doing the same thing but from the other direction so they were bond to meet, eventually. But Nicki stopped dead in her track when she heard her phone ring, delaying they meet. She searched her bag and once she found her phone picked up. Once Nicki received the information from the person on the other line, she dropped her phone and hit the ground along with it. Drake eventually met up with Nicki but she was unconscious and he was distraught. He just called an ambulance, scared out of his mind and in tears.

He called her mother and father to tell them what happened. Nicki mother was in tears, ranting out the information Nicki received.

Her Grandmother had died.



  1. This Chapterr.. Loooveeed it. Damn Poor Nic. This Tore her up prettyy Bad. Im Glad shea Slowly recovering From the breakup. I think this is what they Need. Time apart from eachother. Figure who they are as Indiviuals. And If its meant to be there Paths Will cross right? But for now, i think its best for them to be apart. And What the hella Goin on with Drick and Bree? like No. this Bitch Needs to Goo. nd Atleast Nic Got a liddo of her future figured out. Nooooo. her Grandma died. )': just Like she had predicted to Nic. Poor Nic. Just what she needs another Thing to make her Unhappy and depressed. Im excited t see whats gonna be happenin next. Soo Please posst soon.. ^___^

  2. I loved this chapter but it made me so sad :( please let nicki and drake get back together I'm gonna cry if they don't :( update soon!!

  3. Good job barb woman! Now, ima need you to make sure Drake doesnt move away so that my beautiful couple can get back together. I would really hope Drakes dumas can make up for what he did cause Nickis still hurting but... idk suprise us I guess.

    Luv Ya Muah!

  4. OMWord. My poor baby Onika :(! Here comes the melancholy because of what happened to her and Drake then her grandma. This makes one sad--like me! But let me get in sequence. I hate to see her like this. To the commentaries, they weren't needed, idiots! It's rude. She's hurt and you're going to make her feel less? -_- stupid m'fs. Oh congratulations cutie Cassie ^_^! That's wonderful! You go, girl! Hahaha :p. Drake -_-. I don't want to hate someone I love, but what he did jjust made me disappointed and displeased. How dare he! Way to go Drake! Nicki, you're beautiful! I hate to see her like that. I know everything that happened has affected her. I just hope princess finds peace. Bree -_x. She better not been on slick shit because I'll be livid! Lol and that's it.
    Somehow I stared thinking about if they were to be together again O_o...although it might hurt too bad. This would actually make me feel like they are destined lovers :O. Oh my goodness! Hahahah.
    By the way, I'm mad because my browser decided to travel to another site or reload while I'm commenting. Asshole -_- ctfuu! I
    love you Esssy Star! Mwuah!

  5. Oh yeah! I forgot to say that "Z" name is attractive and unique :). Now I didn't say that I liked him b/c I'm not feeling like little "Ask out" lol. Idk I'm just too Dricki to condone that ctfuuu ^_^. Unless Nicki was really feeling him or whatever -_-, then I'd just have to get over it -____-! Lol. Awesome chapter anywhore (:

  6. You Need To Get Them Back Together, For Reaaaalllll :((
    Awesome Story Though :)

  7. this bree bitch needs to disappear!!

  8. Omg loved this chapter. poor Nic things don't seen to be going right for her lately. hope that she's okay. That dumb ass bree needs to disappear before she gets her ass whooped! butima need dricki to reunite. Impressive work though :-)

  9. Omg omg omg omg !!!! This chapter was amazing !!!! I'm happy that she's trying not to focus on drake and getting on with life ! But the fact that her grandmother is dead :'( :'( post soon !!

  10. ESTHERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR what so i even say!!

    I wanna give nic the BIGGEST hug like going through everything she did like whao. You know there's deffinetly something wrong if nic's wearing joggers & oversized hoodies, i'm just glad that she eased back into her old self but with a different mind set. Aaww she got accepted into NYU so poud :'). Wtf is drake doing talking to that bitch i legit don't even remember her name *shrug* i get that he was asked to show her around and stuff but from the way nic sees it it doesn't really look like that. Oh noooo omg she fell *cries* i really just wanna hug her :'(. I know nic doesn't want anything to do with drake but pushing him out isn't going to help so when he asked why zeph was holding her like that it was more of his natural instinct. Oh my gosh grannie died. YO AUBREY BETTER NOT LEAVE HER SIDE WHEN THE PARAMEDICS SHOW UP!!

    This chap. was too much i can't deal imma need you to update asap!!

  11. I'm sad as shit poor onika she doesn't deserve all of this....I have a feeling but imma keep it to myself until its comfirmed add soon