Saturday, 11 May 2013

Gotta Go My Own Way

Sorry for the wait...

Chapter 40

It's was prom night, Amber and Cassie have been begging Nicki to come with them since she came back from Trinidad. But with no avail, Cassie and Amber went with their dates. Once Nicki got back from Trinidad her mother catered to her every need. Nicki found it so hard to move after she had the abortion. Two weeks after the abortion and she still felt ill. That's one of the reasons why Nicki didn't go to prom, plus she couldn't see Drake just yet.

Drake on the other hand wanted to see Nicki since she got back from Trinidad. He wanted to beg for her forgiveness. It was killing him, being so distant from the love of his life. He just needed her. Just like she needed him at that moment.

Nicki would cry in her room none stop you would think she was a teething baby. Nicki was so mad at herself; as soon as she had the abortion she regretted it. When she first saw the ultrasound of the baby she saw it was a boy. The nurse said he was health but Nicki didn't want to hear that. She just wanted it gone. No one except her mother and Anna know what she had done. That's the way she wants it. Her father is completely clueless about the incident. He questioned it but was shut out by his daughter and wife. However Nicki didn't want to feel this way. The whole point of this decision was to be able to move on. Move on pass the hurt and the shame and focus on happiness. That evening Nicki looked to the higher power and called upon his mercy and grace, to protect her from her enemies and for her for the sins. Also she prayed for the gift of forgiveness.

The special prom night Nicki felt whole again. She wrote done a couple words in her notepad and pack it neatly in a box. There was three days till graduation and seven days till she leaves Cali.

Graduation came and left Drake still hadn't spoken to Nicki. It was now moving day and Nicki was already in tears having to leave her 5years old brother and parents, unlike Cassie, Nicki made it very clear that she is not coming back. Although her parents will check in to see hair every holiday they get. Nicki flight was at 4:45pm, 3hours before her flight she said her goodbyes.

"Munchkin, I love you. I will see you at thanksgiving. Okay?"

"But Nicki, that's forever away." Micaiah said.

A tear fell from her eyes. "Well I'm sure before summer is over mommy will let you come see me."

Caiah wiped the tear away and looked at his mother. Carol nodding to the suggestion. "Don't cry Nika, mommy said yes she will take me."

Nicki smiled. "Cooooooooool" she giggled and tickled the 6year old before leaving a pink stain on his cheek. "I love you" She hugged him tightly.

"Love you too"

Nicki got off her knees then looked at the father. She busted in to tears. "Hey Hey hey, look at me." Robert said in his thick accent. He held his daughter pretty face and she looking into to his eyes "I am so proud of you, I am honoured to be your father." She kissed his cheek and hugged him tight.

"I love you daddy."

"I love you. Look at my princess... Off to college..." Robert could hold his tears in anymore. Robert let go of his princess and still saw the little Onika telling her father not let go as her taught her to ride a bike. Like he did back then, he let her go and let her growth into a beautiful woman.

"Oh dad," Nicki wiped the old man’s face. "I love you."

Nicki just walked over to her guardian angel, the love of her life, her everything. "You got your tickets and passport?" Nicki nodded. "Your car is already on its way there." Nicki nodded. "Look at my baby, all grown up. No more pink streaks," She played with Nicki hair. "No more contacts. Just my naturally beautiful baby. And she's all grown up and I can't do this." Carol threw her hands up surrendering.

"Aww Mommy," Nicki hugged her mother. "You'll be fine without me; I'll be fine on my own. I do have wonderful parents that raised me right. So you have nothing to worry about."

"Onika always remember where you came from and know where you are going." Nicki nodded and kissed her mother on the cheek.

"I love you guys." Nicki saw the time and knew it was time to leave. "I will see you guys before summer is over, right?" Carol nodded and kissed her daughter tell her to be safe. Robert and Caiah did the same.

She got in the taxi waving goodbye to her family and she let a few tears escape her eyes. She waved until she couldn't see them anymore.

Drake knew today was the day. He has been trying to contact her but Nicki changed her number and no one would give him her new one. Drake even went to her house a couple times that week but she wasn't home or she was too sick to see anyone. Nicki was not avoiding him, it was all truthful excuses. Drake just picked the wrong days to see her. He went to her house and knocked on the door. Mama Maraj answered the door. Drake could tell she was sad, it was evident from the tear stains.
"Hello, Ms Carol is everything okay??"
"Yes dear, come in." Carol stepped aside to let him in.
"Where's Onika?" He asked, nervously rubbing the back of his neck. Carol didn't answer him, she just handed him a small box; which had his chequered shirt from time Riri came and everyone got drunk and the earrings her got her on their first date.

"She's gone to the airport. Aubrey I advice that you go there now and get her back. I know she still loves you. Without a doubt you still love her, so go!" Drake smiled and hugged her before running to his car and throwing the box in the back.

Drake was racing to the airport like a mad man. He ran a couple red lights and he didn't care, it didn't matter. All that mattered was Nicki. He was ten minutes away from the airport and there was traffic. With frustration he beeped his horn continuously. Shortly after, he decided to park his car and run. He swerved his car to the same spot he gave Nicki oral sex, he got out locked the car and sprinted, faster than a sprinter.

Once he got there, Nicki was just getting out the taxi. Drake walked a comfortable distance before her whilst he tried to regulate his breathing.

Nicki pushed her luggage towards Cassie once she spotted her. "Hey Cas, where's Safaree?"

"He went to the restroom." She smiled. "You ready for 3years of Cassie World?" Nicki giggled.

"Yes, girl we are going to have so much fun. Amber said she will come see us before her semester starts." Cassie eyes widened when she saw Drake standing behind Nicki. "Cas, what's wrong? I said Amber's coming, what's the problem?" Nicki was confused.

"I'm going to go find Faree." Cassie excused herself to give them privatise. Nicki should her head, confused. She felt weird, like someone was staring at her. Nicki turned around and saw Drake.

She closed her eyes, and then re opened them. "How did you know I was here?" She asked.

"Your mother told me," He said.

She nodded. "Did you get the box?"

"Yes," There was an awkward silence before Drake spoke again. "Why didn't you tell me you were leaving?"

"I wanted to but I was so…"


"Yeah." There was silence again, Nicki looked at her feet while stepped a little closer to her. He lifted her head and then aimed to kiss her lips but got her cheek. He smirked then stepped back. Nicki put her had on her chest then back down by her side. "Drake,"

"It's okay." He attempted to walk away but Nicki called him back.

"Drake come here, please." He turned back to her and held both her hands.

"Listen to me, I love you and will always love you. You will always have a piece of me. But this. Us. We will never work. We want different things. We are not on the same page and if we ever were on the same page, life always got in the way. Honestly, I just need time to figure out who I am. And you need to figure out what you want. I have to leave this all behind, and focus on my future." Nicki started to choke up, she could feel her tears surfacing. "I'm leaving; I have to do what's best for me. You'll be okay."

"What about us, what about everything we've been through." Drake was fighting, this war.

Nicki tears fell; she had to do this for herself. "What about trust, Aubrey?"

"I never meant to hurt you; I never meant to make you cry." He looked into her brown almond shaped eyes. He was about to let his tears fall.

"What about me, Aubrey want I want?"

"What I'm I supposed to do?" He could stop fighting for someone who didn't want to be fought for. But he had to. He had to let her leave. Let her go. The person he was so sure her was going to marry. He had to. For her.

"I don't know." Cassie came back with Safaree, "I gotta leave. But…"

"I'll miss you." Drake and Nicki both said. She let go of both his hands, leaving something in his right hand. She turned away, wiping her tears and then pushing her luggage to the check-in desk with Cassie and Safaree beside her. Drake watched her walk away until she was swallowed up by the crowd of people. He wiped his tears, and then looked at the thing Nicki left in this hand. He lifted it up to his face. Then searched for Nicki with his eye. When he couldn't find her, he just turned around and walked out the airport. When he reached his car, dumped the necklace, he gave Nicki in the box.

Nicki POV

I'm waiting for my plane to take off. I refuse to start my new life crying. Safaree and Cassie were trying to watch a movie together whilst I had Que sera sera on repeat

I read somewhere, that love is forever, eternal. If you truly love someone, the feeling never go away, they are just hidden buried so deep in your soul that you last them.

Or maybe, this book was wrong. Maybe this is the end of my love song. Maybe it's the wrong love song. Perhaps, forever is a Long Time.

Sneak Peek of Love Song: Eternal Love "Light! Camera! Action! Here we go."

Bright lights with everyone watching. Time for the beautiful show to start. Something this couple has been waiting months for. "You doing great baby." A smile crept on her face as she panted heavily.

"Alright, Onika I need you to push." She grabbed the hand of her husband. The beaded sweat rounded down her flawless face as she clutched onto her husband’s free hand.

After the first push she relaxed and her beautiful husband, Drake handed the camcorder over to Mama Carol. To take over the filming.

Drake got a cloth and wiped the glistening sweat off his wife forehead then kissed her. "You are looking sexy. You’re doing great baby." Onika smiled sweetly, she was too exhausted to speak.

"I need one big push." The doctor instructed. Onika did as she was told, tightening her grip on Drake's hand. "Well done Onika." She tried to regain her breath whilst Drake complimented her.

Drake went to see, the baby was crowning. He could see the beautiful golden brown lock. Drake started to get excited.

"Onika I need a huge push from you, on the count of three." She nodded and braced herself. "1, 2, 3" she pushed as hard as she could. Then fell back exhaustedly. "Onika, look." Nicki sat up a saw her beautiful baby still half in her.

Too tired to speak Nicki pulled out her baby and cradled her happily. The nurse got a blanket to cover the new born....

TBC... On Blogspot Soon

LAST CHAPTER SO I WANT A LOT OF COMMENT... or I might reconsider the sequel

Friday, 12 April 2013

Runaway Love

So the Last Chapter will be posted before Monday .. Brace yourself... I've written half of it and I busted into tears I had to stop because I couldn't see. Its so emotional. ANYWAY ENJOY!

Chapter 39

The sirens were louder than ever. Drake was in a panic, alongside Amber and Cassie. The whole school questioned what happened to Ms Maraj. The paramedics made it to Lake Side High School within 5minutes of the call. Cassie and Amber went in their own cars to the hospital.

"Sorry only family can ride with her." The lady said.

"I'm not family but she is my girlfriend the only thing I've got." He cried.

"Okay kid, get in." The woman opened the door for Drake. What he said may not technically be true but he just didn't want to leave her side. Drake held her hand in the ambulance praying silently that Nicki would be okay.

Nicki woke up to a bright light, as a natural reflect she closed her eyelids again. Then opened her right eye, soon she opened the left. She blinked and looked around the room without moving her head. Her head was killing her. She was about to move her hand when she felt soft hands holding it and warm tears. The person's head was lying on her wrist. Nicki cleared her throat to see who was at her bed side. In an instant, Drake looked up. Nicki was in complete shock. She snatched her hand back so fast.

"Nicki," Nicki could see he had been crying for a long time. She looked at him confused. Drake read her perfectly. "You fainted."

"Why?" Nicki voice was hoarse. She cleared her throat once more and sat up whilst holding her throbbing head.

"Because you got the news about your Grandma."

"No! Why are you here? Where are my parents?"

"They went to pick up Caiah, they're on their way. I'm here because I was worried about you. I jumped in the back of the paramedics with you because I was scared something would happen to you. I left my car at school and I have no way of getting home." Drake said calmly.

Nicki stayed silent because she didn't know what to say. She just looked away from his glaze. Drake had had enough he needed his girl back. Life was way to short to dwell on the past that was Drake's perspective on the whole situation. Drake stood up and put his fingers under her chin. When she didn't finch or turn away, he thought that was an okay to do what he wanted to do. He leaned in and pecked her lips lightly. He felt she was not hesitant, he continued. He cupped her cheek reeling her into a deeper kiss. They little moment was soon interrupted by a cough.

Drake smirked as he pulled away and Nicki shifted slightly. She felt even more uncomfortable than before. She was mad at herself for letting him take control of her like that. She frowned as she wiped the kiss off her lips. Drake sat in the chair next to her bed and frowned because of Nicki's action.

"Onika I see your up and well" the old white man that interrupted them, commented. Nicki turned red. She was so embarrassed. "I'm Doctor Little."

"Nice to meet you." Nicki smiled.

"Like wise," The old man smiled. "I'm here to talk about the few tests we ran. Do you want to hear alone or with your boyfriend?"

She was about to yell at the man for calling this two timer her boyfriend, but she figured he just assumed since he just caught them doing what couples do. "Um, alone." She said surely. Drake walked out, not knowing that the conversation about to take place had everything to do with him.

Once the door close, Dr Little began, "Onika we ran a few test on you while you was unconscious. You fainted, and when you fainted you hit the floor pretty hard, so you may experience bad headaches for a while. We would give you something for it but given the fact that you’re pregnant, the pills will affect the baby."

Nicki chuckled. "Good one doc."

"Come again?"

Nicki laughed harder. "You're funny. I'm pregnant." She said between laughs.

"Onika, this is not a joke you really are pregnant. I thought you knew, you're almost 4months." Dr Little was shocked.

"What? No, what am I going to do I have college and work and gradation and, and mis padres me van a matar. Acabo de llegar a la Universidad de Nueva York. este día podría obtener cualquier peor. Yo falta mi abuela." Nicki had never been this mad before. After her little rant, she was in tears and the last word she said that day was "Drake." The doctor said not to worry she had a lot of options. As soon as her parents came she was discharged from the hospital and her parents took Drake to school to retrieve his car and Nicki's car.

Once Nicki got home her mother made dinner, the house phone and mobile phones had been ringing none stop. Amber and Cassie were at the hospital but wouldn't let Nicki rest. They kept texting her to see if she and her family were okay. Everyone was calling Mama Carol to see how she was holding up. Dinner time in the Maraj household just wasn't the same that night. It was about 11pm when Nicki went to bed but she could sleep. She just sat up and pulled out her note pad.

Why is my world crashing down before my eyes? My grandmother past away. She's gone and there's nothing I can do to bring her back. Is it that easy to just take away the life of an honourable woman? She was my everything. My mother, my grandmother, my friend and sister all in one. I just don't understand she was supposed to be getting better. They all said she was getting better. But I guess, God knows what he is doing he knows it was time for her to leave. That's why she warned me before. "The next time you see me Imma be in a box" She knew. I see why God wants her with him; she was a true life angel. Perfect in every way. What am I gonna do about this Baby. What am I gonna do about Drake. It's obvious I'm still in love with him and he still loves me. But love is not always enough.

Nicki sat the pen and note pad down and slept with tear drops all over her pillow.

The Funeral

It had been a week since Nicki got the double shook of her life. Sworn to secrecy Nicki didn't say a word to anyone about the pregnancy. Nicki's family were now in Trinidad for the burial for her Grandmother. Everybody knew Nicki was her Grandmother's favourite, as her favourite Nicki said a few words.

"Hello everyone, I'm Onika and I wrote this on the day she past." Nicki took a deep breath. "An honourable women she was, a true angel on earth. She was my everything, my grandmother, mother, friend and sister." Nicki started to cry and couldn't finish, so her cousin Anna took over.
"The last bit on Onika's piece of paper is; I'm going to miss you Grandma and you'll forever be in my heart."

The day after, Nicki's family was schedule to go back to LA but Nicki wanted to stay with her cousins for an extra week. After saying her goodbyes to her family, Nicki went to her old room that she used to share with all her cousins. Only her Auntie Catherine and her cousin, Anna was in the house. The rest of the family went to the different states they lived in or their own houses in Trinidad.
It’s been three days since the funeral and Nicki had gone back to writing raps. She wrote about her Grandmother, about the baby and mostly about Drake. It was her therapy session.
Although she would cry while she wrote and it was supposed to be a clearer way of getting all her thought out. Nicki still seemed to be hurting everything was so heavy on her end. All she wanted was for someone to hold her. Tell her everything will be alright. But it will never be alright. Anna walked in the room. "Onika you ready…" she stopped talking when she saw her on the floor.”Nika stop crying."

"I can't help it Anna. Everything hurts."

"I know Nika, but." Nicki cut her off.

"No you don't know Anna," Nicki shouted. "Everything I thought was a blessing is gone. Grandmother is gone, my relationship with the love of my life is gone, and now I'm pregnant." She cried. Nicki was a wreck.

Anna quickly closed the door. She hugged Nicki and rocked her until she stopped crying. "Onika you need to pull yourself together. You need to stay strong." Anna Trini' accent wasn't so thick. "Yes Grandma is gone but crying won’t bring her back. It was just her time. One day you will reunite. I promise you that." Nicki smiled and looked up at Anna. "As for this guy, I honestly think God want you to be together because there is a baby involved. Does he know?

"No and he will never know."


"No! I'm not keeping this baby or anything else he gave me. Yes he is my past but I'm need to focus on the future, my future and he will not be in it. I don't want to be hurt again."

"That's ridiculous. You need to stop thinking about this so rashly."

"No Anna you don't know what he did to me, plus I have college." Nicki argued.

"Onika, children are blessings, well if ya wise enough to open ya legs for a boy. Ya ain't wise enough for college." Anna covered her mouth soon regretting what she said.

Nicki looked at her cousin. "Look who's talking. We all know you’re pregnant too."

"Onika, how did you... Look I didn't mean that. I really didn't. Babies are blessings don't punish this child because of that boys' mistake." Nicki looked down. "How ya know I was pregnant?"

"Grandma said she saw it, in her dream." Anna nodded.

"Listen you are my baby cousin and I love you, I know you will do the right thing." Anna kissed Nicki forehead and then left. Anna was only a year old than Nicki but she was the calmest in the whole family, she wasn’t as crazy as everyone else. Anna was the prettiest and quietest.

Nicki took what Anna said to heart and then call her mother. After saying her greetings with her mother Nicki just blurted out, "Mom, I'm pregnant" Nicki closed her eyes waiting to her reaction.

"What? Oh Onika," Her mother began to cry.

"Mom please don't cry." Nicki began to cry also.

"It's all my fault, I failed as a mother."

"No mommy, you didn't."

"Yes, I did, this is my fault I should have given you protection."

"Mom you can't baby me forever."

"God put me on this earth to protect you. I should have done better."

"Mommy, listen to me, I'm 18 years old this is my responsibility. It's no one’s fault but mine and his, we got caught up in love and lust. Plus you did tell me to be safe."

Mama Carol dried her tears and continued her phone conversation with her daughter. "Onika what are you going to do?"

"I can't keep it."

"Onika" her mother said in a warning tone.

"I can't keep any of the things he gave me. Whether it’s a necklace or his seed. Beside if I keep it then I will have to come back and mom I don't want to come back. Plus I just about to start college. Mommy I just want you to be proud of me."

"Onika, Anna come and help me with this shopping" Nicki's auntie shouted in her thick Trinidadian accent from the bottom of the stairs.

"Mom I have to go Auntie Catherine is calling me. Bye"

"Onika wait!"


"I'm proud of you and I know you will make the RIGHT decision." Nicki gulped. She dried her tears before hanging up and going down stairs.


Wednesday, 10 April 2013

Almost the end... :'(


Lost without you: Chapter 33

Back and Forth: Chapter 34

Letcha Go: Chapter 35

Birthday Sex: Chapter 36

So Sick: Chapter 37

U got it Bad: Chapter 38



NEW NICKI (oh imagine the blonde hair is black)

 i don't know what other visual yall want...

Monday, 28 January 2013

You Got it Bad

Sorry if its not edit properly, I'm kinda half a sleep its 3am here. :( Anywho enjoy!

Chapter 38

A new year and a new Nicki. She has stopped crying herself to sleep. She has stopped crying. Nicki had picked up a new trade. It's called not giving a fuck. She doesn't wear make up, she figured she's not pretty so why try enhance beauty that's not there. She wore oversize clothing, because she can't be bother to look cute. She wears her hair in a messy bun or in a ponytail. Lastly she doesn't wear her contacts anymore she wears her big skinny famed glasses. Yep, that the new Nicki. And she didn't give a fuck.

School resumed back on the 3rd because they broke up early than other schools. Nicki use the main entrance like always. As she walked to her locker, she heard whisper and gasps.
"Who's the new girls?"
"That's no new girl that's Nicki"
"Did you hear? Drake cheated."
"Poor Nicki."
"Bitch had it coming."

Just a few of the sly comments Nicki heard. It didn't faze her though. Nicki just went about her business and went to class early. Cassie ran in to class knowing that her besties always come early. She stop dead in her track and frowned at Nicki.

"Nicki, what happened to you??"

"First of all no 'I missed you or Hi' and Nothing happened to me."

"But?" Cassie paused and figured it was because of the break up. "Sorry. Hey girl, I missed you, how was Trinidad?"

"Relaxing," Nicki said it her native accent and smiled. "Just what I need,"

"Thats awesome. Guess what?" Cassie exclaimed, sitting next to Nicki.


"No no no, I have to tell you and Amber together." She spazzed out.

"Cassie just tell me. I can't wait for Amber to get here." She pouted.

"Fine," Just as she said the Amber walking in.

"HOLY MOLEY, WHAT THE!" Amber exclaimed at Nicki's new look. Cassie and Nicki looked at her puzzled.

"Nicki what happened?"

Nicki frowned. "Nothing." She readjusted herself in her seat feeling a little bit uncomfortable.

"So why are you dressed like this?"

"Because this is how I feel, I don't feel pretty or cute I just feel weird and disgusting." She said lowly.

"Oh Nicki," Amber sat on the other side of Nicki in her seat. "You're neither of those things, you're beautiful. This isn't you." Nicki looked down. "But I know your hurting right now so I don't want to hurt your feelings. Just know Cas and I are here." Cassie and Amber hugged her, tightly.

"I missed you guys."

"We missed you so much." Cassie said as she look at the clock, it was five minutes before the bell rang. "Okay Guys, I need to tell you what I got in the post today." The girls listened to Cassie. "I got the half scholarship to Juilliard."

"You lie??" Nicki exclaimed, then screamed, she was so happy for her friend. Beyond happy.

"Cassie I'm so happy for you." Amber excitedly hugged Cassie.

"My mother wants to have a small get together, like a party to tell me 'I told you that ballet wasn't a waste of time.'" Cassie chuckled.

"I love Auntie Regina, she's too funny. I'm proud of you though Cas. Out of everyone in this school you deserve to go."

"Thanks Guys." The bell rang and everyone walked in.

Ms Scott greeted everyone. "Happy New Year Class, only a couple months left of your senior year so make the most of it. You exam schedule will be given out on Wednesday. If you need anything I'm at my desk. You can sit and talk until the first bell for class." Just are Ms Scott turned to her desk Drake came running through the door.

"Sorry I'm late."

"It's fine Drake take a seat." Drake looked at Nicki, she didn't look back she just sunk in her chair. He sighed and went to his seat.

It was lunch time and the girls sat in the cafeteria on the usually table, waiting for the boys. Shad and Omarion took they spot at the table.
"Happy New Year ladies" they said together.

Cassie giggled. "Happy New Year." Amber said the same. But Nicki was in her own little world. She played with her food, then took a bite, then played with it again. Shad nudged Amber, gesturing to Nicki. Amber whispered in his ear what was wrong.
He nodded and moved next to her putting his arm around her. She jumped at his touch.

"Sis, I said happy new year." He smiled.

She rolled her eyes. "Sorry, happy new year." She smiled weakly.

Eventually Cam made it to the table. "Babe, what took you so long?" Em asked.

"There was a new girl, Keri dropped out of school because she got signed. She's in my science class."

"Oh." Amber and Cassie started talking about her party. Nicki on the other hand, had finished her food and the lunch lady forgot to give her a napkin. As Nicki turned around to get off the bench, she was Drake talking to another girl. He made her laugh, like he used to make Nicki laugh. She was so pretty. Nicki figured she was new because she ain't never seen her before. She stared at them for so long that Drake could feel her staring. They locked eyes, Nicki could feel her tears surfacing. She attempted to run out the Cafe, but end up falling flat on her face.

"Oh My God, Nic" Amber yelled.

"Nicki" Cassie exclaimed. They both run to her aid, along with Drake. "Are you okay?"

Nicki opened her eyes and sat up. She saw the whole room staring at her. Drake and the girls helped her up. She yanked her arm from Drake grip, only because his touch still gave her the chills. She felt sick being in his presence, so she ran to the girls bathroom. Drake ran after her. Once Nicki reached the bathroom she couldn't stop herself from throwing up. Drake walked in the restroom, he held her glasses (that had dropped off her face when she fell) and rubbed her back as she throw up. When she was done pouring her guts out, she cried hysterical. He took her out the cubicle and carried her to the sink. She was still crying. He wiped her tears with his thumb, only for fresh ones to fall. Nicki was in a weak state. She didn't want to cry but she didn't expect him to bounce back so first. After all they've been through.
Drake did want to spoil the moment by talking but he had to set her straight. "Nicki," he started but Nicki finished with a slap.

"I've told you before not to touch me." She wiped her tears and got off the sink.

Drake held his face, "I'm sorry," he swiftly removed his hands from her face.

Nicki chuckled and ran the cold water. She washed her hand then gargled the cold water then spat it in to the sink.

"Nicki, Bree is new, I was just told to show her around." Nicki looked at him.

"You don't need to explain that to me. Can I have my glasses?" He handed them to her glasses. She walked out the bathroom with him on her heel.

"Aubrey? " Bree called after him. Both him and Nicki turned around. Nicki looked at him hurt. "You left me with your stuff remember." She giggled giving Drake his bag.

"Yeah sorry, Bree."

"It's fine." Bree could feel the tension in the air. She wanted to say hey to Nicki but figured she will save that greeting for another time. "I'm gonna head to class."

"Okay." Drake nodded. He turned to Nicki, "I can explain."


"Nic it's not what you think."

"You said you only tell people that you care about can call you by your first name." Nicki felt her stomach turn. "You know what I think? I think you're a cheat and a liar." With that Nicki walked away from him. She went home due to the school nurses orders, the nurse concluded Nic had a virus. But what Nicki didn't know was that was how Drake and Bree was introduced, his science teacher called him Aubrey because Drake had a smart mouth that lesson. Drake didn't correct Bree because she was new.

3months later...

Cassie's party was so nice. Everyone had on bathing suits but Nicki, of course she came in her relate attire; sweats and an oversized hoodie. For a whole week Nicki was mad at Cassie for not telling her that Drake was going to be at the party and that he was bring Bree. Seeing them together made Nicki nauseous and Cassie knew that. Cassie swore she didn't know that he was inviting Bree. She was so sorry. But Nicki being the stubborn girl she is didn't talk to Cas for a whole week.

It's was Nicki's last exam, she was excited. It's was finally over. Lately she had been getting back to being Nicki with the help of Cassie, Amber and Riri. Over past 3months Rihanna had become a bigger star so she was in LA a lot. So yes, Nicki had to explain to her why she was dressed and felt the way she did. Anyway, she was now returning to the old Nicki, she's wearing cute clothes again and doing her hair. Although she is still wearing her glasses because she's grown to love them over the past 3months. She is eating properly and being more social. Although it looks like the same old Nicki, its also a new Nicki with a different mind set on love and boys. Nicki also found out that NYU excepted her and want her to join them a month early. So Nicki and Cassie are going to the airport a week after prom to get situated. As for Safaree doesn't got college but he decide he wants to expand his jewellery line. So he is following them to New York for that, but the main reason was to be closer to Cassie. Nicki and Cassie are going to live together, since their colleges are a 15 minute car journey apart. Nicki has two more month left in LA and she can't wait to leave. Cassie got a job, modeling for Prada in New York. Whilst Nicki got a Job working at Marc Jacobs. They parents put done a down payment for the 2bedroom New York apartment, how ever Nicki and Cassie have to pay for phone bills, electricity bills and water bills, for 3years. Rich Kids got to made. Amber, is just going to Harvard, but any break she gets she has to come and see her besties. Everything was gonna be so good.

"Phat Phat!" A Deep voice called Nicki by her new nickname; because her ass is so phat and the other phat is because she's gained a bit of weight do to the lack of exercise.

She turned around from her locker to see Zephaniah, the guy that asked her out when Drake and her was dating, the same guy that was the lead in the 'Your Love' performance. "Oh Zeph, I haven't spoken to you in forever."

"I know." He chuckled. "Listen Nicki, what do you say we go to the senior prom to caught up on lost times?" Nicki was flattered. It was a confidence booster she needed. She felt so wanted at that moment.

Nicki replied, "Smooth." She giggled and he smirked. "Sorry Zeph, I'm not even going to prom." She smiled.

"Can I take you out instead?" Nicki giggled.

"I see your persistent." He smiled. "I don't think I'm ready for that right now, sorry." She turned back to her locker.

"Please Nicki just give me a chance." She turned back to look at him as he rested his hands on her waist. She really didn't think much of it because Zeph was like a brother to her.

"I'm sorry, I just…" She didn't know how to explain that, she just wanted to stay single.

"Nicki? What the hell? Why is he hold you like that?" Nicki and Zeph looked to the left. Nicki had had it up to the skyline with Drake. They're not together more.

"Drake, why are you causing a scene? We are no together anymore, that what you decided when you cheated on me twice with the same girl. It's what you wanted. So quit asking me dumb shit like we are still together because we're not. We haven't been for 4months, you need to leave me alone." Nicki slammed her locker door and walked away. Everyone in the hall stared at Drake. Drake just looked at the back of Nicki and walked in the other direction. It's been 4months but Nicki can't seem to put his mind to ease. He missed her, that night in Miami he came to the conclusion that she didn't love him anymore due to the fact that he showed her love and she resisted him. He had stopped trying but he couldn't let her go. Drake had decided to go back to his home town, Toronto with 40 and pursue his career in music. He was gonna go to college but this semester he realised it's not for him.

Nicki walked down the halls, annoyed, frustrated and angry. Why does Drake make her feel so small? She gave him her all. She continued to walk down the empty halls, clearing her mind before she went home. Drake was doing the same thing but from the other direction so they were bond to meet, eventually. But Nicki stopped dead in her track when she heard her phone ring, delaying they meet. She searched her bag and once she found her phone picked up. Once Nicki received the information from the person on the other line, she dropped her phone and hit the ground along with it. Drake eventually met up with Nicki but she was unconscious and he was distraught. He just called an ambulance, scared out of his mind and in tears.

He called her mother and father to tell them what happened. Nicki mother was in tears, ranting out the information Nicki received.

Her Grandmother had died.


Monday, 21 January 2013


So if you didn't know this story only has 3chapters left until the end... However! I am writing a sequel! I need help on the name so I need my readers to vote for the name of the sequel. Just vote by leaving a comment with the number of your choice.


Monday, 31 December 2012

So sick (of love songs)

S/o to barb_the BAD for writing last chapters sex scene. enjoy!!!

Chapter 37

It was 6:15am, Nicki hadn't slept all night. Her pillow was soaked with her tears. She sat up in Amber's bed and looked at her surroundings. Amber and Cassie were at the bottom of the bed. True friends; they stayed up all night petting their distraught friend. When she got to the hotel room the night before, she shut the door and slid down it to the floor. She put her hand eyes and cried aloud. Amber was the first to notice Nicki and soon after called Cassie to help get Nicki off the floor. Once they did, they took her to the sofa and got her a box tissue. Then Nicki explained to her friend why she was crying while she cried. Cassie cried with her and Amber was ready to cut someone. The two girls just did not know why someone that Nicki loved so much could hurt her so bad. All ended up in Amber’s bed. Nicki said she couldn't sleep in her room and Cassie felt left out so they all slept in one bed. Nicki cried silent tears in to her pillow while the girls slept. She laid back down on the bed and looked at the time, she decided to get ready ever though she didn't want to. The pain between her like hurt like a cunt. She decided to soak herself in the bath tub. Nicki closed her eyes for a second only to reopen them and find her body in a pool of blood. She almost screamed, but she didn't. Nicki cried at the bloody reminder that she lost her innocence the night before. She got in the shower and got ready. Once she was done, she woke Cassie and Amber and bought he luggage to the suites door.
Cassie came out the shower in Nicki's ensuite room. She noticed Nicki staring out of space at the wall across the room. Then her tears started to fall and Cassie did her friendly duty and hugged her pink marshmallow.
"Nicki it will be okay." Cassie cooed. Nicki just continued to stare at the wall in silence with tears running down her cheeks. Her body was sore from the sex and from the way she tried to scrub his scent off her. She tried and tried but he was still on her. "Nicki it will be okay." Cassie repeated.

Everyone was waiting for the girls at the airport. Drake had found an earlier flight. "Where are they?" Jelani groaned impatiently. As he said that the girls made it to the airport. "Finally" he sighed as the girls approached the group. Jay noticed Nicki couldn't walk properly. "Hahaha you look like death." He commented on his baby sister's appearance. Nicki honestly didn’t give two flying fucks about what Jelani had said.

"Nicki are you okay?" Trina asked. Nicki nodded but tears fell out so she lowered her head.

"Come on you guys we got half an hour to get checked in and board our plane." Jelani let everyone walk in front of him and Nicki. "Onika?" He said in a low tone. She didn't answer nor look up. "Onika." No response again. "Nika, wanna tell me something" she just sniffed.

"No" she managed to say.

"Onika you had sex didn't you." He raised his voice at her. She didn't answer him. "Didn't you" He shouted and people started to stare.

"Jay, drop it." She started to walk off but the pain between her legs held her back.

"Onika don't walk away from me" he yelled

"Jay shh please." Nicki put her finger on his lips. Jelani looked at his troubled sister.

"Nika did he force you?" He lowered his voice as they walked behind the group.

"What? No" She shook her head.

"What's wrong? Where is he and why have you been crying?"

She bit her lip. "Um, he has been cheating on me."

Jelani was dumbfounded, he was confused. "The same Drake that loved you more than life? The type of love you only see in his eyes?"

"I guess he just played us all." She sniffed once again as she checked in.

"When I see him, I'm gonna kill him. I promise you that!"

"Jelani promise me you won't do anything. Please I love him please don't hurt him."

"So it's okay for him to hurt my baby sister but I can't hurt him? Whatever man." Jelani walked on to the plane.

"Jay just drop it please." She followed behind him. They took they seats on the plane. She sat next to Cassie and just slept on the plane.


Nicki woke up in her room at 8:16pm; she took a shower then put some pyjamas on. She made her way to the living room and greeted her dad.

"Hi princess, how you feeling?" Mr Maraj asked.

"Umm a bit better actually."

"Your brother already said you didn't sleep much last night." The mention of 'last night' made Nicki a little dizzy.

"Um yeah, sorry Dad I think I need to lie down for a bit."

"Okay princess, but don't forget this Friday we are off to Trinidad to see your Grandmother and Christmas"

"Yes dad." She kissed his cheek and went back to her room.

Nicki cried so much, it was bound to make her sick. Her mother came back from bible study to find Onika was still in her room. She could her Nika crying from the bottom of the stairs. Robert was passed out on the couch. Carol asked Caiah to wake his father up while she checked on Nicki.

"Oh Nika," Carol just hugged her darling daughter.

"Mom," She sobbed loudly. "He hurt me so bad, he really did, mom"

"Oh Nika," Carol cried with her daughter.

"Mom, I gave him everything I had". Everything!" She sobbed. Nicki was hysterical crying. "Mom my heart hurts, it really does."

"I know Nika, I know." Nicki cried on her mother's chest as Carol rocked her gently to sleep.

Thursday Night

Every night Nicki would cry herself to sleep. It was the only way she could sleep these days. Nicki was completely excited to see her grandmother and cousins this Christmas. That was the best gift her parents could ever give her. However she was still sad. She couldn't shake these feelings she had towards Drake. The love she had for him is something she just couldn't control. It just hurt to love him. She cried into her pillow. Praying for the day when she will forget him.
Just as she finally was going to drifted off to sleep. She received a text from Drake.

<< Please stop crying you’re too pretty for that.
<<I'm sorry, I really am. I love you

She cried herself to sleep once again. Just seen those words made her knees weak and her heart melt


Nicki took in the sweet air of Trinidad. She loved Trinidad, every time she comes back to Trinidad; it's the most peaceful feeling on earth. When her family made it back to her grandma's house, Nicki felt the tears escape her eyes as her favourite cousins called her name.
"Onika?" They yelled in their Trini accents.

"Cheyenne? Anna? Dianne?" Nicki cried. "I missed you guys" The four girls hugged. Nicki admired how beautiful her older cousins were.

"Onika we missed you" Anna said wiping her tears.

"Seeing you guys once a year is not enough. I miss you so much." Once a year the whole of Nicki's family will go to her grandmother’s house for Christmas. You dare not miss this holiday at her Grandma's house because you will be scolded for it. Nicki sat in the living room greeting the rest of her cousins. "Where's grandma?"

"In her room, she is getting better slowly but at least she is getting better." Cheyenne informed her cousin.

"Okay, I'm gonna go talk to grandma for a bit."

"Okay Onika, all the girls are going to the mall when you come back." Her mother said, Nicki nodded and went to her grandmother's room. She knocked on the door.

"Come in." Her grandma had the thickest accent in the house. Nicki walked in to see, her grandma. She was beautiful old women with the longest her. When Nicki was younger she used to brush her grandmothers hair as they talked. "Onika, da is you?" she smiled beautifully.

"Grandma," Nicki smiled, letting one tear fall. She hugged her and they both took in each others scents. "I missed you so much." A few seconds passed before Nicki let go. She grabbed a brush off her grandmother's dresser and sat on her bed. Her grandma laid right on her grandbaby's thighs. Nicki started brushing her hair.

"Onika, you lookin thicker than ever." Her grandmother chuckled.

Nicki furrowed her brows at her grandma. "Grandma, that's not funny."

"Nika, mi know you growin into a woman, now. Mi also know you bein doin the nasty. Mi see it in mi dream."

Nicki grasped as brush her hair. "Grandma!"

"Mi nah lie." Nicki stopped and looked at her. "Gyal, mi know the truth." Nicki smirked and looked away. "Yes you look away." Nicki chuckled lightly, how awkward was that moment? "You and Anna."


"You nah hear word?" Her grandma playfully rolled her eyes. "Both of you gotta bun in the over."

"WHAT??" Nicki stopped brushing her Grandma's hair.

"You hear mi,"

"No, grandma where did you hear that??"

"Did mi say mi hear it? Mi say me dreamt it." Nicki was quiet, this truly scared he because whenever her grandma dreamt something small factions of it would be true. "Wah happen Hoss?"

"Um…" Nicki took a deep breath. "We broke up."


"He's been cheating on me." Nicki's stomach turned as she said that.

"Oh Nika,"

"It's fine." Nicki didn't even notice her tears falling.

"Onika, don't cry over boy dem." Nicki bit the inside of her cheek. "Your family love you Nika. Cherish these moments because next time you see me, mi could be in a box, Life is way too short."

"Grandma don't say that. Please..." Nicki sat the brush down and hugged her grandmother tightly. "I love you okay? Don't talk like that!"

"I love you too baby," Nicki wish she could stay with her forever. "Onika I want to sleep now."

"Okay Grandma." Nicki put the brush back on the dress. She wiped her tears and fluffed he grandma’s pillows. "Sweet dreams." She kissed her crazy grandmothers forehead and closed the door quietly behind her.

Monday, 17 December 2012

Birthday Sex

Chapter 36 

Drake POV

It was 3 pm, I had something important to tell Nicki but I couldn't remember it at all. I had the worst headache in the world at that moment. I searched high and low for my phone but I had no luck in finding it. I looked everywhere in the living room area of our suite, it had to be here since I didn't go to my room. I was determined to find it for some reason, something told me it was really important I find it, I tried but my headache interfered, so I gave up.

After having a shower and getting dressed I took aspirin to help with the headache, I waited for the aspirin to numb the pain and went to Nicki's suite. She opened the door, "Hi baby, what happened to you last night? I told you to come over." She pouted, I pecked her lips.

"I know but after I left the club..." I thought hard. "Everything else is a blur"

"Ok well I see you got to your hotel room okay" She said noticing my fresh new clothes. She grabbed my hand and led me in the suite. I closed the door behind me.

"What did you need me for anyway?" I asked.

"Nothing" She was looking up but she was avoiding eye contact with me.

"Nicki, what was it?" I laughed, she looked so innocent. She stepped front until our noses were touching, which was possible because of her pink platform pumps.

"I wanted... Umm you know... Umm I wanted to finally." She bit her lip, and then spoke. "Do it" She confessed

"Do what?" I chuckled, still confused.

"Have sex, you idiot" She walked into the living room area of the suite. I swear I almost died; my girlfriend is ready to have sex with me right now? I love Nicki so much. I wish she was my first but I know she will be the only other girl I will have sex with from this onwards. She just looked frustrated; I knew I had to make it up to her.

"Nicki, sorry I wasn't there, last night. But i promise to make it up to you today." She stared at me blankly. So I whisked her in the air off the sofa, causing her to giggle, preciously. I took her to her bed room as she kissed my lips with her arms around my neck. Our tongues danced around and around, mimicking each other's movements. I felt her smile once my teeth grazed her bottom lip. She then pulled away with a subtle chuckle. I smiled down at her as she laid back on the bed. Nicki was a portrait beneath me. Her beautiful locks, curled tight just for me, covered most of the pillow her head lay on. Her eyes were like crystals staring up at me, and her lips, slightly parted, were stained pink. My eyes followed her hands as they travelled down her body. I licked my lips watching her unbutton her jeans.

"You wanna take off your shirt?" She asked me, breaking me from my trance. I smiled, remembering my purpose.

"Oh, yea." I removed my shirt then helped her out of her pants. She shed her white tube top and soon our clothing littered the floor.

I kissed her lips while my fingers found her pearl. She hissed feeling my soft touch.

Nicki POV

Drake's lips left mine as he began kissing my neck, sweetly. I was getting wetter with every second his fingers glided between my lips. The more tension that built within me, the more I wanted him inside.

"Put it in." I managed to whisper as he teased my skin with his tongue. I spread my legs a little wider and scooted further down to meet him. This was really about to happen... I bit my lip as I felt him entering me.

"Ohhh!" I yelled out, in a voice unfamiliar to my own.


"Ow, ow!"

He stopped as I looked at him, worry etching itself across his face. "We don't have to–"

"No. Keep going. I want to." I told him.

He exhaled and began entering me again.

Drake's POV

I was barely two inches in when I felt her nails digging into my skin. I could feel her tensing up the deeper I tried to go.

"Relax." I whispered to her. She finally eased up, allowing me to plunge deeper. I then heard a faint gasp escape her lips. Slowly, I began to move out then in, then out again; she was so tight. I kissed her neck as I continued to thrust into her. Soon, our bodies were hot and beading with sweat.

"You okay?"

"Yes..." She breathed. "Oh, God.... Aubrey.... I love you so much."

Lifting my head from the crevice of her neck, I looked at her.

"I love you." She repeated.

She looked so sweet, so innocent. I wiped away her tears as they fell from her eyes. I fixed my lips to respond, but something inside me was making me feel... guilty? I didn't understand.

"Aubrey?" She moaned, breaking my trance once more.

"I love you too, Onika." I kissed her lips while pulling the sheets over us both.


Nicki loved the smell of sex, but she loved the smell of her Johnson's Coca butter cream more. She got up in some much pain but she could handle it and took a shower with Drake, which is where the fun continued. Nicki got dress in here juicy couture black tracksuit and Drake just wore his clothes. He decided to help Nicki packed because they would be leaving the next morning.

"We're back" Amber yelled then she went into Nicki's room. "Oh Hey Drake" She said with a smile across her face, she could smell the sex in the air.


"Hey girl, it's about time y'all came back, tell me everything!"Nicki squealed sitting Indian style on the carpet flooring.

"Ok I am just going to go now" Drake said but Cassie, Amber and Nicki talking and screaming, they didn't pay him any attention.

Drake left to go back to his room. He decided to start packing and that is when he came across his phone. His phone refreshed his memory. He could remember something's from the night before. As soon as he went through his phone, he started to remember and hated what he remembered and hated himself. He knew one thing, that he needed to tell Nicki.

Nicki POV

I finished packing my things after Cassie and Amber left my room. I'm so happy everyone's relationship is so GREAT! I told them about Drake and I and how I lost my virginity card. Amber was so proud of me and Cassie was just happy I did it with a man I love. I think Drake is definitely the one for me. There is a reason our paths crossed.

The girls were in their room packing. Our flight is at 10:30 tomorrow morning. We decide after we pack that we are going to have a girls night you know, movies, eat junk food. Imma work it off late.

Once I finished packing I laid out my clothes for the next morning. I almost forgot that I need to call Trina tell her congratulation again, I know she is beyond excited. Hell, so am I.


"Tell Trina I said thank you for the best birthday ever! What time should we meet you guys tomorrow?"

"She said you’re welcome sweet pea. Um… 8am. Make sure to tell the boys."

"Hell no, you tell them," I giggled. “Oh, Jelani did you tell mom yet?"

"She's the one that gave me the idea to propose." He laughed

"Oh??" I cocked my head at her phone like he could see her. "And no one informed me?"

"Because you would've told her. Yall are mad tight I couldn't tell you."

"Jay, I don't have a big mouth." I pouted.

"Sure, I will talk to you tomorrow, good night" he said and hung up in my face. I just stood there mouth open.
"He did not." I chuckle lightly. He is for sure getting it tomorrow. As soon as I hung up, Drake called me.

"Hey Babe, Great Timing"

"Oh hey, Nicki we need to talk, "

He sounds serious but nervous "What about?"

"I will tell you when I see you; meet me in the park we went to yesterday, okay?"

"Okay Drake what's wrong, you're
scaring me."

"Just meet me there in 30 minutes"

"Okay." I took a deep breath then hung up. I don't understand what's going on.


Nicki let the girls know she was leaving and she shouldn't be more than an hour. She put on her sneakers and made her way down to the park. It was so dark but thankful the street lights were on. However it was a little chilli so Nicki feel it was nessacary to zip her tracksuit all the way up and walk with her hands in her pockets. As she walked closer to their spot in the park she wondered more. What was this meeting about? Her question was about be answered. As soon as Nicki caught a glimpse of Drake's muscularly exterior, she ran and jumped into his arms, wrapping her legs around his waist. She grabbed his face with both hands and kissed him. But soon pulled away, something was a bit off with the kiss. She got down from him whilst staring at him like he had two heads. "Babe, what's wrong?" She asked with a confused pout. When he hung his head, she just waved it off as she walked searching for a conversation. "Oh my gosh, babe did I tell you?" She asked holding his hand. Drake head still looking at the floor. "Trey came to my hotel room last night." The mention of 'last night' made the hairs on the back of his neck stand up. He looked at her. "Yeah, he was telling me to leave you. I was like why would I leave the MAN of MY dreams for the boy of my nightmares?" Nicki chuckled. "Drake he is so pathetic, I don't think y'all should be friends anymore. To be honest he ain't a friend." Nicki rambled on about how much of a friend he isn't.

"I don't deserve you." Drake whispered.

Nicki stopped dead in her track. "What?"

"I don't deserve you." He said a little loud. He had tears in his eyes.

"Babe, what are you talking about?" She asked as she wiped his tears.

"Nicki I'm sorry," He said repeatedly as he fell to his knees. Nicki was so confused but it made her heartache to see Drake in such a state. All she could do was hug him. "Nicki I did I bad thing." He sobbed.

"Drake, you're scaring me please stand up."

Drake stood up as she wished and held both her hands. He looked at the promise ring he gave her, then he looked at the necklace her gave her. He looked at her face and saw the earring he got her on their first date. He hung his head in shame. "Nicki,"

"Drake, you're scaring me." She could feel something wasn't right.

"Nicki I cheated." He said almost immediately after Nicki spoke.

Nicki feel her tears surfacing. "What?" She quick pulled her hands away from him.

"Nicki I'm so sorry I was drunk…"

"What?" Her tears blurred her vision.

"I didn't know what I was doing and I promise it will never happen again."

"Wait, wait, wait, Aubrey. What did you do?"

"Nicki I'm sorry."

"WHAT DID YOU DO?" She screamed, scaring all the nocturnal animals in the park.

"I cheated." He whispered. The back of Nicki's hand made a hard connection with Drakes cheek.

Nicki cried hysterical. "With who?"

"I'm so sorry." Drake cried.

"Just tell me who."

"With Jaz,"

Nicki felt dizzy. Like she couldn't stand any longer.

"Last night, she texted me and I was drunk."

Nicki chuckled. "Drunken actions sober thoughts. You knew exactly what you were doing."

"No and Yes, I did that's why I stopped before it went too far." He reached for her face but she slapped his hand away.

"Don't you dare touch me!" Her gasped at her own thoughts. "You're just like Trey; you couldn't wait for me so you got the cookie from somewhere else."

"Nicki that not true."

"What is TRUE, Aubrey? Because I don't know anymore. Did you truly love me? Did you truly care for me? Was I truly yours?"

"Nicki you're my truth, my love and my light."

"That's so funny how I believed everything you say, but now I don't believe shit." Nicki gasped at her own thoughts once again. "You were…Oh My God!" Nicki was having a panic attack. "Oh my God." Drake told her to sit down. "Oh My God." Nicki sat down and tried to calm herself. When she did she continued her sentence. "You took my innocence" She looked down at herself. "After you was with her the night before." Nicki couldn't even look at him. "You make me sick."

"I'm so sorry. I would have told you before we did what we did. But I didn't remember and I lost my phone. As soon as I found my phone I KNEW I had to tell you."

"How could you Aubrey? How could you hurt me this bad?" She didn't even look at him. She was still staring at her sore body in tears.

"Nicki I'm sorry." Drake got on his knees in front of her and held her face in his hands. He didn't care that she didn't want him touching her. He couldn't lose his love. "Look at me." She did. "I love you and I promise I will never as long as I live hurt you. I love you Onika." He kissed her lips passionately. Nicki let out a soft whimper as he kissed her. He laid her down on the grass. Still in a passionate kiss. She laid her right arm on her forehead as he parted her legs.

"Aubrey please" She was broken-hearted and weak. He continued to kiss her.

"Nicki I love you." She hesitated but softly kissed him back. He slid down her pants and did the same for him. Then he pushed his love slowly into her. It hurt but not as much as the first time. Drake was slow and gentle.

"Ow..." She rested her other hand on his torso.

He stroked in and out of her as he circle her clit with his thumb till she came and he came soon after in her. He rested his head on her shoulder. He listened to her soft whimpers.


"Aubrey, I can't." She sobbed.

"Nicki please..." He begged

"I can't, I can't do this. You hurt me, you hurt me bad." She whimpered.

"I'm sorry, I love you please." She pushed him off her and pulled up her pants.

"Aubrey, I can't do this with you, we can't be us." Nicki took off her ring. She placed the ring in his hand. "This wasn't meant to be." Nicki ran off crying.

Drake couldn't believe that this was the last place he held her, kissed her and made love to her. There was no more fighting for her. She had made up her mind, even after he showed her his heart.


Monday, 26 November 2012

Letcha Go

Author's Notes: Sorry guys I should have posted this last night but I fell asleep... :P For the next chapter I forgot to write a very VERY important scene so I will have to post it later on this week... Maybe tomorrow...

Chapter 35

Drakes POV

I knocked on HER door, I hope she is ready for me. "I see you got my text." She said with lust in her eyes.

"Yeah, what am I doing here?"

"I want you… I need you… I gotta have you... I love you" she said in a sexy tone whilst she revealing a black bra and thong which was under her red silk robe.

"I love you... too" My words slurred but once I said that our lip crashed together and we walked in her room. She unbuttoned my shirt and my pants pulling them down with my boxers. She got on her knees and sucked on my dick, until I came in her mouth, but she just swallowed that shit. I picked her and she wrapped her legs around my waist. I carried her to the bed and slide down her thong. Then I licked her out. She moaned several times I could tell she liked it. She started to jerk away and I pulled her back. But something was not right. Then I came to my senses and stopped before things got out of hand.

"Look, I'm drunk, I don't know what I am saying or doing Jaz, you know I have a girlfriend what are you thinking?"I slurred my words.

"What am I thinking? I am thinking I still love you techinquely we never broke up so I am still your girlfriend." She said putting her thong back on.

"You fucking moved away! We are over"

"But you love me you, just said you did." She cried.

I took a deep breath. "I love you and always will but this can never work you have to go back to London soon... Plus I love you but I am IN love with Nicki, like I really love Nicki. I know we didn't end, but I have a new beginning, can't you just be happy for me." Jasmine wrapped herself up in her robe that was once on the floor. She sat next to me at the end of the bed.

"I am happy for you but where does that leave me" I looked at her and she was about to cry but was trying so hard not to. I know her too well.

"I don't know but I do know that you have you whole life ahead of you, your just 17, and you’re beautiful, and I know any guy would be lucky to have you as they're girlfriend." A tear fell from her eyes. I love Jasmine so much but not as much as I love Nicki. I mean Jaz was my first love. But I know she gets it now, I knew she understood where we lie.

"Thank you Aubrey, I love you,"

I wiped her tear off her cheek and hugged her "I love you too" I wore my clothes.

"Nicki is a lucky girl!" she smiled

"I am a lucky guy" That just fucked up his relationship. I jumped in the air and stood up as straight as I could; giving the fact that I was drunk, it wasn't very straight.

"Bye Aubrey"

"Bye Jasmine, remember to call me before you leave to go back to the UK." I walked over to her tripping over air.

"Are you okay?" I kissed her cheek and left. I wasn't in the right mind to answer the question. All I heard was her chuckle before she closed her hotel door. I have to tell Nicki because our relationship is about trust and I'm not letting what happened last time happen again. I have to tell her. I looked at my phone 4:05. I will tell her in the morning. She is probably knocked out.


Drake went to his room. He couldn't see in his room because Cameron and Amber were in there. Safaree had Cassie in his room so Drake just passed out on the sofa. Little did he know that Nicki was wide awake waiting for him, and she wasn't alone...

Nicki was all dress up in sexy lingerie, pink cosset and a pretty little thong, a White silk robe and white pumps. She sat in the living room area of the suite. Amber and Cassie were nowhere to be seen. Nicki was waiting for what seen like forever for Drake. She impatiently looked at her phone. It was 4:20am There was a knocked at Nicki hotel room. She went to go open it, she was so excited to see her baby plus she was excited to give him her everything. That excitement soon turned in anger, when Tremaine Neverson was at her door.

"The Fuck you want Trey" Nicki started to wrap herself up in her robe, frustration hit her like lightening.

"You" He stepped a little closer to her.

"Well you can't have me, now if you will excuse me I have something to do" she tried to close the door but he pushed it back towards her.

"Don't you miss what we had?"

"Well I do miss your kiss, your touch, the way you lick your lips" He licked his lips and leaned front. Nicki pushed him. Onika may have been under the alcohol influence but she wasn't stupid. "But I want more Trey, I want someone who doesn't cheat on me, who loves me and that person is NOT YOU!"

"Nicki I am so sorry."

"Ugh! Trey I don't wanna hear that shit, you’re not sorry, and I bet you don't even love me"

Trey got on his knees and hugged waist “Nicki I did love you, I do love you"

"Trey no you didn't and you don’t" she rolled her eyes and tried to push him off her waist.

"Nicki I wouldn’t have taken a plane here if I didn't love you, I know you love me too, we were together for year, love doesn't just die like that. Just Dump Drake"

Nicki pulled away as far as she could and slapped Trey soo hard that everyone on her hotel floor could feel it. How dare he tell her what to do, after the shit he did. "Don't you ever tell me shit like that! I Love him, you are half of the man he is. HE would NEVER cheat on me. When you were in my life, you should've treated me right." She shouted in his face, still in the door way of her hotel suite. "Nigga up out my fucking room" She struggled to get out of his tight grip; but when she did, she slammed the door in he is face.

'The fuck!' is all Nicki thought as she heard Trey banging on her door. Nicki went to sleep with a big headache and it will get worst because of the alcohol. Just her night. Trey had to spoil her birthday party weekend! Plus Drake was nowhere to be seen.



Drake POV

It was 3 pm, I had something important to tell Nicki but I can't remember it at all. I have the worst headache in the world at that moment. Where the hell was my phone. Ugh!! I searched the whole suite for the phone, but his headache interfered, so I gave up.

After having a shower and getting dressed I took aspirin to help with the headache, I waited for the aspirin to numb the pain then went to Nicki's suite. She opened the door, "Hi baby, what happened to you last night? I told you to come over." She pouted, I pecked her lips.

"I know but after I left the club..." I thought hard. "Everything else is a blur"

"Ok well I see you got to your hotel room okay" She said noticing my fresh new clothes. She grabbed my hand and lead me in the suite. I closed the door behind me.

"What did you need me for anyway?" I asked.

"Nothing" She was looking up but she was avoiding eye contact with me.

"Nicki, what was it?" I laughed, she looked so innocent. She stepped front until our noses were touching, which was possible because of her pink platform pumps.

"I wanted... Umm you know... Umm I wanted to finally." She bit her lip, then spoke. "Do it" She confessed

"Do what?" I chuckled, still confused.

"Have sex, you idiot" She walked into the living room area of the suite. I swear I almost died, my girlfriend is ready to have sex with me, I love Nicki so much. I wish she was my first but I know she will be the only other girl I will have sex with from this day onwards. She just looked frustrated, I knew I had to make it up to her.

"Nicki, sorry I'm wasn't there, last night. But I promise to make it up to you today." She stared at me blankly. So I whisked, bridal style, her off the sofa, causing her to giggle, preciously. I took her to her bed room as she kissed my lips with her arms around my neck.