The sirens were louder than ever. Drake was in a panic, alongside Amber and Cassie. The whole school questioned what happened to Ms Maraj. The paramedics made it to Lake Side High School within 5minutes of the call. Cassie and Amber went in their own cars to the hospital.
"Sorry only family can ride with her." The lady said.
"I'm not family but she is my girlfriend the only thing I've got." He cried.
"Okay kid, get in." The woman opened the door for Drake. What he said may not technically be true but he just didn't want to leave her side. Drake held her hand in the ambulance praying silently that Nicki would be okay.
Nicki woke up to a bright light, as a natural reflect she closed her eyelids again. Then opened her right eye, soon she opened the left. She blinked and looked around the room without moving her head. Her head was killing her. She was about to move her hand when she felt soft hands holding it and warm tears. The person's head was lying on her wrist. Nicki cleared her throat to see who was at her bed side. In an instant, Drake looked up. Nicki was in complete shock. She snatched her hand back so fast.
"Nicki," Nicki could see he had been crying for a long time. She looked at him confused. Drake read her perfectly. "You fainted."
"Why?" Nicki voice was hoarse. She cleared her throat once more and sat up whilst holding her throbbing head.
"Because you got the news about your Grandma."
"No! Why are you here? Where are my parents?"
"They went to pick up Caiah, they're on their way. I'm here because I was worried about you. I jumped in the back of the paramedics with you because I was scared something would happen to you. I left my car at school and I have no way of getting home." Drake said calmly.
Nicki stayed silent because she didn't know what to say. She just looked away from his glaze. Drake had had enough he needed his girl back. Life was way to short to dwell on the past that was Drake's perspective on the whole situation. Drake stood up and put his fingers under her chin. When she didn't finch or turn away, he thought that was an okay to do what he wanted to do. He leaned in and pecked her lips lightly. He felt she was not hesitant, he continued. He cupped her cheek reeling her into a deeper kiss. They little moment was soon interrupted by a cough.
Drake smirked as he pulled away and Nicki shifted slightly. She felt even more uncomfortable than before. She was mad at herself for letting him take control of her like that. She frowned as she wiped the kiss off her lips. Drake sat in the chair next to her bed and frowned because of Nicki's action.
"Onika I see your up and well" the old white man that interrupted them, commented. Nicki turned red. She was so embarrassed. "I'm Doctor Little."
"Nice to meet you." Nicki smiled.
"Like wise," The old man smiled. "I'm here to talk about the few tests we ran. Do you want to hear alone or with your boyfriend?"
She was about to yell at the man for calling this two timer her boyfriend, but she figured he just assumed since he just caught them doing what couples do. "Um, alone." She said surely. Drake walked out, not knowing that the conversation about to take place had everything to do with him.
Once the door close, Dr Little began, "Onika we ran a few test on you while you was unconscious. You fainted, and when you fainted you hit the floor pretty hard, so you may experience bad headaches for a while. We would give you something for it but given the fact that you’re pregnant, the pills will affect the baby."
Nicki chuckled. "Good one doc."
Nicki laughed harder. "You're funny. I'm pregnant." She said between laughs.
"Onika, this is not a joke you really are pregnant. I thought you knew, you're almost 4months." Dr Little was shocked.
"What? No, what am I going to do I have college and work and gradation and, and mis padres me van a matar. Acabo de llegar a la Universidad de Nueva York. este día podría obtener cualquier peor. Yo falta mi abuela." Nicki had never been this mad before. After her little rant, she was in tears and the last word she said that day was "Drake." The doctor said not to worry she had a lot of options. As soon as her parents came she was discharged from the hospital and her parents took Drake to school to retrieve his car and Nicki's car.
Once Nicki got home her mother made dinner, the house phone and mobile phones had been ringing none stop. Amber and Cassie were at the hospital but wouldn't let Nicki rest. They kept texting her to see if she and her family were okay. Everyone was calling Mama Carol to see how she was holding up. Dinner time in the Maraj household just wasn't the same that night. It was about 11pm when Nicki went to bed but she could sleep. She just sat up and pulled out her note pad.
Why is my world crashing down before my eyes? My grandmother past away. She's gone and there's nothing I can do to bring her back. Is it that easy to just take away the life of an honourable woman? She was my everything. My mother, my grandmother, my friend and sister all in one. I just don't understand she was supposed to be getting better. They all said she was getting better. But I guess, God knows what he is doing he knows it was time for her to leave. That's why she warned me before. "The next time you see me Imma be in a box" She knew. I see why God wants her with him; she was a true life angel. Perfect in every way. What am I gonna do about this Baby. What am I gonna do about Drake. It's obvious I'm still in love with him and he still loves me. But love is not always enough.
Nicki sat the pen and note pad down and slept with tear drops all over her pillow.
It had been a week since Nicki got the double shook of her life. Sworn to secrecy Nicki didn't say a word to anyone about the pregnancy. Nicki's family were now in Trinidad for the burial for her Grandmother. Everybody knew Nicki was her Grandmother's favourite, as her favourite Nicki said a few words.
"Hello everyone, I'm Onika and I wrote this on the day she past." Nicki took a deep breath. "An honourable women she was, a true angel on earth. She was my everything, my grandmother, mother, friend and sister." Nicki started to cry and couldn't finish, so her cousin Anna took over.
"The last bit on Onika's piece of paper is; I'm going to miss you Grandma and you'll forever be in my heart."
The day after, Nicki's family was schedule to go back to LA but Nicki wanted to stay with her cousins for an extra week. After saying her goodbyes to her family, Nicki went to her old room that she used to share with all her cousins. Only her Auntie Catherine and her cousin, Anna was in the house. The rest of the family went to the different states they lived in or their own houses in Trinidad.
It’s been three days since the funeral and Nicki had gone back to writing raps. She wrote about her Grandmother, about the baby and mostly about Drake. It was her therapy session.
Although she would cry while she wrote and it was supposed to be a clearer way of getting all her thought out. Nicki still seemed to be hurting everything was so heavy on her end. All she wanted was for someone to hold her. Tell her everything will be alright. But it will never be alright. Anna walked in the room. "Onika you ready…" she stopped talking when she saw her on the floor.”Nika stop crying."
"I can't help it Anna. Everything hurts."
"I know Nika, but." Nicki cut her off.
"No you don't know Anna," Nicki shouted. "Everything I thought was a blessing is gone. Grandmother is gone, my relationship with the love of my life is gone, and now I'm pregnant." She cried. Nicki was a wreck.
Anna quickly closed the door. She hugged Nicki and rocked her until she stopped crying. "Onika you need to pull yourself together. You need to stay strong." Anna Trini' accent wasn't so thick. "Yes Grandma is gone but crying won’t bring her back. It was just her time. One day you will reunite. I promise you that." Nicki smiled and looked up at Anna. "As for this guy, I honestly think God want you to be together because there is a baby involved. Does he know?
"No and he will never know."
"No! I'm not keeping this baby or anything else he gave me. Yes he is my past but I'm need to focus on the future, my future and he will not be in it. I don't want to be hurt again."
"That's ridiculous. You need to stop thinking about this so rashly."
"No Anna you don't know what he did to me, plus I have college." Nicki argued.
"Onika, children are blessings, well if ya wise enough to open ya legs for a boy. Ya ain't wise enough for college." Anna covered her mouth soon regretting what she said.
Nicki looked at her cousin. "Look who's talking. We all know you’re pregnant too."
"Onika, how did you... Look I didn't mean that. I really didn't. Babies are blessings don't punish this child because of that boys' mistake." Nicki looked down. "How ya know I was pregnant?"
"Grandma said she saw it, in her dream." Anna nodded.
"Listen you are my baby cousin and I love you, I know you will do the right thing." Anna kissed Nicki forehead and then left. Anna was only a year old than Nicki but she was the calmest in the whole family, she wasn’t as crazy as everyone else. Anna was the prettiest and quietest.
Nicki took what Anna said to heart and then call her mother. After saying her greetings with her mother Nicki just blurted out, "Mom, I'm pregnant" Nicki closed her eyes waiting to her reaction.
"What? Oh Onika," Her mother began to cry.
"Mom please don't cry." Nicki began to cry also.
"It's all my fault, I failed as a mother."
"No mommy, you didn't."
"Yes, I did, this is my fault I should have given you protection."
"Mom you can't baby me forever."
"God put me on this earth to protect you. I should have done better."
"Mommy, listen to me, I'm 18 years old this is my responsibility. It's no one’s fault but mine and his, we got caught up in love and lust. Plus you did tell me to be safe."
Mama Carol dried her tears and continued her phone conversation with her daughter. "Onika what are you going to do?"
"I can't keep it."
"Onika" her mother said in a warning tone.
"I can't keep any of the things he gave me. Whether it’s a necklace or his seed. Beside if I keep it then I will have to come back and mom I don't want to come back. Plus I just about to start college. Mommy I just want you to be proud of me."
"Onika, Anna come and help me with this shopping" Nicki's auntie shouted in her thick Trinidadian accent from the bottom of the stairs.
"Mom I have to go Auntie Catherine is calling me. Bye"
"I'm proud of you and I know you will make the RIGHT decision." Nicki gulped. She dried her tears before hanging up and going down stairs.